simple thoughts......

a simple piece of my mind is hard to come by today. i find that it lives in an utterly shattered condition and no single piece can be found without others coming along. my thoughts are often circulating too many things at once for my to concentrate on any single thing. although this is not new, i still find it aggrivating. i can do one thing at any time, but i still hear the indoor fountain that is behind me, the child who is joyfully playing with his brother around it, the two men who are discussing any number of things beyond the fountain and slightly to my right. i also hear the tv to my left, notice whenever the woman to my left about ten feet moves or pulls out her newspaper, the woman in front of me on the other side of the table, although my screen blocks all but her head, the two men who are sitting at the cafe, and a numerous amount of other things. all this somes in at the same time. and because it is currently the action item (in this case items) it takes my attention. the semi on the road out the window..

i won't lie, i do like being well aware of my surroundings. but there are times that i would prefer if i could simply concentrate on one thing. take reading the Bible. when i read my Bible, i like to understand it the first time. there are many times that i reread an entire chapter because i realize i was thinking about thirty other things, and although i have a pretty good idea of what i was thinking about and what i was reading, i realize that i missed something. it doesn't make perfect sense. perfect understanding only comes by the Holy Spirit, however it helps to actually read it.

unforetunately, this is all the time i have. and although i know everyone just loves to listen to me talk (which is a joke), i simply must leave.

may you glorify God in all things that you do, and let people se Christ in you.

-therefore, seeing that we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily besets us, and run with endurance the race that is set before us- Hebrews 12:1

not who i was

Sinister claws at my mind
Ripping in two
these thoughts of mine

Sinister words at my tongue
Screaming evil words
From deep in my lungs

Sinister thoughts at my heart
Tearing this person
Who I was apart


I don't know who I am
Or why I'm destroying
Everything I was
I don't love who I've become
Or why, what life I had left
I threw out last night


Evil times we are in
Evil trances
Take root from sin

Evil people we are now
Tearing friendships
Down along with vows

Evil ideas we think
Trying our hardest in
Adversity not to blink


I don't know who I am
Or why I'm destroying
Everything I was
I don't love who I've become
Or why, what life I had left
I threw out last night


But I've become something
I can't stand
I'm the very person I once hated
I hate this filthy hand


I don't know who I am
Or why I'm destroying
Everything I was
I don't know why I left
To be replaced with
This monster I've become


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~Daniel Hanson

Regrets...

I have more Regrets than I can count.... And so many come from the recent weeks. I've found many things in this life are not as they first seem. And even fewer of these things remain unchanging.

There is no certainty in our cardboard, gasoline soaked world... Yet there is certainty. The only thing certain is that we have a God who loves us. He stays with us through all troubles and everything we could and ever will endure. Better yet, He knows what it is like to endure all these things.

This is my God I speak of. This is Jehova. This is Jesus. This is the one and ONLY God.

Life: I find it painful sometimes. And I've come to realize that life is the harder of two choices... You must continually choose to live... Once you do it, you have to do it again. It seems hard and long at times, but that's because it is. God's word promises us not happy days, but days filled with turmoil. When you see a Christian suffering and strugling more than you, it's probably because us as Christians have been called to a higher standard. Along with that comes more suffering. As the word of God says, We will endure many hardships, the Righteous man will fall seven (in Hebrew when the word seven was used it meant endless) times and get back up and keep walking.

Death: It has and always will be the easier choice... It is a choice made once. Although you may say, "Yeah right! I would never do that!" Well it only takes one time saying yes and you never have to make the choice again. And when depressed it would almost be easier to say yes...

Hope: I don't just wanna come right out and say Jesus. Although He is our hope. So many people get from this way of saying it the wrong message... They hope in Him because their sorrowful life will disappear and their new happy life will come. Unfortunately most people (90%) who think this way fall away from Jesus. The only reason we should submit to Him is through sorrow and fear. For we have all sinned by:

Lying, hating (murder), stealing, adultry (fornication, lust), not honoring the sabath, not loving with all our hearts God, wanting other's posessions, having idols (even thoughts above God are idols), Having other gods, Misusing God's name (g** D*****)
We are all Going to hell. But through Jesus we are saved.

That is where our hope lies. Only in Christ Jesus. Because we are sinners. Deserving the undying flames, and worms that devoure the flesh.

It will always be easier to die. But if we live for God we will recieve a reward beyond words description.

God bless you, my friends

~Daniel Hanson (Ryan Mcduell)

These are tainted times, you say? I very well agree. Yet I also would have to argue the fact that we are spoiled beyond comprehension. Yes you may understand what I'm leaning at here, or you may not. So I will explain. We as Americans, have everything we could ever want. Television, is a commodity in the modern "world" (also known as North America). Microwaves, o! The tales I could tell! What wondress adventures lye in the microwave! Computers??? "Don't 'dis' those! You're using one after all!" (Dis???) Cell phones??? "Let me look that up on the web, on my phone quick." Cameras that let you view the pictures you just took. "Ah, I don't like that one, I'm gonna delete it and take another." Mp3 players? I must say I listen to mine very often. A car? What on earth would we do without cars!?!?!? Who cares about gas prices! You better not take my car!!!!!!!

Now I could tell of many dislikes and likes of all of those. And yes I use about all of them on a daily basis. I'm not saying they're all bad. But if you go outside this great North America, England, parts of China, Japan, and a few others we begin to lose those...

Now how about our homes? Big and luxurious? maybe not, but try living in a one or two room house, with the bathroom, that has but a toilet and nothing else, outside. You'll see your home on a bit larger scale. Or imagine not flushing the toilet paper down with the rest? Odd? How about having to go turn on your water heater the night before just so you have warm water for your shower in the morning. And maybe no microwave? No Computer?!?! AH!!!!!! And then there's the fact you probably have an old junkie car (which is the standard)... Or NONE at all... O! MY! GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!

I love the USA! O, what we would do without it?

So there's a bit. The list goes on and on.........

Now we have something unique, no one else in the world has... We have Freedom. We have a voice. We, the People! We have freedom of religion. We are blessed with so many freedoms!!! Sure, we are fighting for a few... But it's worth a little fight! I mean look at how our nation got started... With an awful war! What about the Civil war to re-unite the staggering states. A very bloody war! Many wars have been fought and many people have died to gain and keep our freedom. Sorry I'm getting side tracked.

I'm just expressing to a few people my thoughts, that most likely wont altar anyone's life. Even in the slightest. Who cares what I say?

Now the point I was making, is this. Why do we complain about our lives'? "O, how horrible is my life" (said very sarcastically) We have everything we could ever need! And though some try and take what is ours, we have the FREEDOM to stand up against them and try and keep what is ours! There are many who oppose Christians. But I'm always up for a good, long, well fought war!

By the way. Learn your facts and present them in a mature way if you want to argue against those who are against us.

God Bless All!

Daniel

P.S. Hope you all have an amazing spring! My second most favorite season!

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